How I met a some kind of happiness in my heart

Hi readers!

Something good has happened to me in Legal Method(LM) class this morning that has caused some kind of happiness feeling to reside in my heart today  *Simbiosis by Ella is playing in the atmosphere *

 Oww..it sounds weird to me now how you would feel happy in a class.Well come on readers, we all know it's hard to plant the seed of happiness in ourselves when it comes to coming to school or class' issues. :p Except for some people or in  certain circumstances or in certain period time like when you first went to school or something that maybe has always made u to feel eager in looking forward for schools, I guess.  But whatever it is,hell yeah I have felt happy while I was in  LM class this morning.

The reason I have felt happy is that.....

Opss...not so fast. Okay readers, sit still and lend me your eyes as well as your mind. Don't worry Im not gonna throw them away. Just for story telling purpose. :p Okay okay Im rambling nonsense now. 

Let me tell you the story.

So today I attended a first lecture of Legal Method class. Normally at the first session of lecture, lecturer will not go directly to the syllabus and start teaching them but a taaruf session will be conducted. Taaruf session basically means an introduction session to get to know with each other better between the  lecturer and students as well as to get a brief idea on what we are gonna learn throughout the semester.  Legal Method is a hands on subject where students will be taught to read the law cases as well as to read the statutes and to conduct a legal research before you can give a legal advice to your client. Basically all these 3 elements are the very basic skills that every lawyer in this world must have possessed. The lecture of this subject will not be only conducted  in a class but it requires students and lecturer  to go to the law library  for the search of law cases and statutes' purposes. In this small number of students' class(we  have got just 13 students in our class), students are divided into two groups for the purpose of debate training, legal research presentation, giving advice to client's training and so on. Students will sit in class according to  the divided groups and work together with the members of the group. Basically, Legal Method class requires a serious participation from students for a lot of activities that will be conducted to help students to get familiarized with legal skills or as the subject's name has said it, Legal Method.

Wait, wait wait...What am I talking about? Oh God,  I am lecturing all of you about this subject!

My apology,readers. I'm supposed to tell you the reason of my happiness in LM class today. Not the LM subject itself :p Haha

Again my apology.

 Okay back to the story. So in our taaruf session today, my lecturer gave away a piece of  A4 paper to every student. As the papers were distributed to all of us, I whispered to myself.."Please la..no drawing..no drawing...no drawing"  I just cant draw.

After all the papers had been distributed, my lecturer looked at all of us with a beautiful smile on her face and said, "Okay, so now I want all of you to draw your own face on that piece of paper given, with the best drawing you can do. Ill give 10 minutes to complete your drawing then Ill call upon every each one of you to  come here, in front of the class to introduce yourself and say something about you along with the drawing of your face"

Upon hearing that, I felt the whole world of mine collapses on me. You know that feeling. That devastating feeling. I was like..."ohh God... I hate drawing.  Im sucks at it. I cant do this. I hate drawing. " 

Readers, I..Nyle really HATES drawing. I hate drawing simply because I dont know how to control and use the nerves and muscles of my fingers  well to create a nice image on a piece of paper or even on a computer painting application :p Really, Im sucks at drawing and because of that, I hate it. :p

Back in childhood days aged 5-7 or so, I still remember I used to draw a lot(though my drawings at that time werent that good).  I think all little kids love to draw or maybe scratch anything on the wall or piece of paper with  pencils(usually on walls ..haha :p Admit it, you used to do that when you were a little kid!) Well then, looking at my history of young ages that I used to draw a lot, I am not sure why I gave up drawing. 

Wait.
Oh yeah now I remember. I think I started to get less involved in drawing when I already knew how to read. I was 7 when I first can totally read. From that on, I just loved to read anything, from story books until newspaper. Yeah.. I started to read newspaper when I was 7 mainly because of my dad's influence. :p

 I used to always see  him getting so preoccupied when he had a newspaper on his hand.  It made me wonder and curious, what's so nice in the paper that made his eyes stuck on it? So then, out of curiosity, I tried reading newspaper that my dad used to buy everyday. Although I have to admit that sometimes I could barely understood what the hell is newspaper talking about,  I enjoyed in bumping into new words and new information about the world or anything. I first learned the name of capital city of Malaysia's states and some of the World countries not at school but from the newspaper. Thank you baba for giving me a good role model . :D 

So that is how I shifted from drawing to a new hobby of reading and later when I was 8 or 9 or 10,(sorry cant remember ) I started to write short stories. :p

 Since I began to know how to read, I didnt draw anymore and the skill somehow became rusty or maybe there's no chance at all for the drawing skill  to be developed :p 

So when I have grown up as a teenager, I never like drawing. I only drew in Art class of lower secondary studies and always hated it :p I still remember how I was so happy as I completed my lower secondary studies and moved to upper secondary because in upper secondary level of studies there's no more Art class. :p

Oh okay, I ramble a lot now. Back to drawing in LM class story, so to tell you honestly, aside of feeling so devastated to be asked to draw, I was so nervous thinking whether if I can make this out within this 10 minutes or not. That would be so embarrassing to be called upon in front of the class with an incomplete drawing.

I stared at the blank piece of paper with a blank mind and a vigorously racing heart. I lamented in my heart I really cant draw..I cant draw..cant draw...I hate this..Ya Allah please help me :/ That moment lasted for about 1-2 mins I guess. 

Then, out of nowhere I got the strength to take a deep breath and calmed myself. I heard a voice of myself whispering to me, "Nyle be confident. You can draw. Just be confident. Chill. Not everyone in this class is good at drawing but everyone is just doing it. So be confident. You can do it. Be confident" I dont know how many times the words of  "be confident" played on my mind but with the spirit of "be confident" that I had in myself inspired by Allah, Alhamdullillah I managed to draw without a shaky hand and complete the drawing of my own face thought it doesnt look like me at all not even a little bit! :p 

After done with the drawing,I looked at that little "masterpiece" of mine.

After one moment

 and guess what,

Out of blue, I felt some kind of happiness is flying gracefully in my heart, passing through the aorta, atrium,vena cava,myocardial muscle bla bla .I smiled and am smiling. Hahaha.opss...hehehe.. :p

 Believe or not, I still feel happy up until now ^_^ 

Im happy because I managed to complete the task that I always always always hated to do and hadnt been doing for yearssss,  successfully. A pat to my shoulder.Congratulation, Nyle. See, you can draw. Everyone can draw. :) Moral of the story is, I guess we just have gotta be confident with ourselves,  and we can surely overcome all the obstacles in life, InsyaAllah.  

So kids, that's the story of how I met a some kind of happiness in my heart today. XD 

Just because of little thing,though :p but heyyy, it means something to me... :p

Yours truly,

NyleRashid

 you can laugh all you want now..

dont worry, Im fine with it and ready for it :p